Alex Mousan

Visual Storyteller
   
A love letter to self
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A love letter to self
Copyright Alex Mousan 2024
Updated Dec 2022
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    My name is Alex M Sanchez but professionally I go by Alex Mousan. I am 30 years old and was diagnosed with being on the spectrum of bipolar personality disorder in August 2022. Bipolar personality disorder is not only the standard manic and depressive episodes, for me it looks like severe bouts of anxiety and severe lows. As I begin to navigate the complexities of my mental health I decided to use my camera to document the various symptoms, depicting everything from racing thoughts, panic attacks, anxiety induced vomiting, to not sleeping for days, pacing etc. These symptoms have brought me to seek psychiatric help and I have been experimenting with different prescribed medications to stabilize myself trying everything from SSRI’s to antipsychotics.

    This body of work is a love letter to myself to give grace to my ever changing body as I continue to understand it in all of its imperfections and complexities. The final image in this series is a portrait of myself next to my grandmother some 80 years apart. My family told me she was thought to have had BPD but was never diagnosed as women were rarely able to receive those kinds of diagnoses when she was alive. Attempting to emulate her in this image was difficult and I spent many hours trying to embody her relaxed confidence. It was a wonderful experience exploring my own mental state and documenting a part of my life that I am just learning to accept, understand and eventually embrace.
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