Yehor, March 2022, Lviv
“I feel unstable. Everything that is happening in the world right now shows that the world is as fragile as glass. During these days when there is a war unfolding in my country, I find myself overwhelmed with fear about everything.”
Yehor H., 20 years old. Kyiv, December 2022
“Before autumn, the impact of war on my life was primarily characterized by the constant fear of air sirens and missiles, but now it affects me on a daily basis, especially during power outages when I return to my dark and cold apartment. Lying under the blanket becomes a way to shield myself from overwhelming feelings of emptiness and loneliness. My depressive episode got worse, leaving me without the strength to get out of bed. The news from my hometown, where my mom and grandma currently reside, has worsened, with Russian missiles posing an increasing threat. At times, I find myself just sitting on my bed, contemplating if I can endure it any longer. I yearn for it all to stop. I don't know if it's connected to my identity as a gay person, but during the war, I sensed a heightened pressure to conform to traditional notions of masculinity, that I should be a manly man that protects his family and friends. But I’m not.”
Sasha N, 22 years old. Lviv, December 2022
"I worry about queer people in Ukraine, because, to me, it feels like a small family, and we all have to support each other. Especially during the war, LGBTQI+ individuals have emerged as a significant source of strength for both LGBTQI+ civilians and the military. LGBTQI+ organizations find humanitarian aid for LGBTQI+ refugees, establish shelters, and organize psychological support groups. I am most worried about the members of the LGBTQI+ community who are fighting or volunteering in hot spots, because if someone dies or is injured, their partners lack any legal rights to burial, inheritance, or hospital visitation. Additionally, I feel a sense of insecurity due to persistent manifestations of homophobia and intolerance. However, there is a glimmer of hope as the percentage of tolerant individuals has increased slightly, and the government has taken some steps to support the queer community.”
Sasha N., 21 years old. Lviv, December 2022
“Everything has changed. I’ve stopped planning my next day. I now truly cherish light, warmth, connections, my friends, my family, and my job. The war has changed everything, yet it has also revealed the most important things in the world to me. Amid the struggles brought by the war, such as depression, anxiety, and PTSD, I personally have experienced and continue to grapple with PTSD. I believe nearly every Ukrainian is facing some form of mental challenge due to the war. It may sound unconventional, but finding joy in life has become of utmost importance. Whether it’s a day following a barrage of 100 missiles in Ukraine, or an evening lit by candles with hot tea and blankets after enduring three days without heat—these simple moments have taken on great significance.”
Yeva Lotta Y, 19 years old. Lviv, March 2022
“Putin‘s occupation of our territories would mean not only the loss of the land itself but the forfeiture of everything we hold dear as a nation, first and foremost our freedom. I see no reason to continue living without my freedom, as most Russians do. I don’t want anyone else to dictate decisions for me. I want to make them myself. I want to create enough space for myself to do the things I like to do. And I want to have enough space to fight for the things I want.”
Edward R, 37 years old. Kyiv, December 2022
“I would like to continue my transition, but now it’s impossible. I don’t want to rely on Hormone Replacement Therapy when hormones might become inaccessible. I’m scared to change my documents now, as it would require spending around one month without a valid passport. In times where there is a constant risk of danger or death, having valid documents is crucial. This, for me, is the primary challenge of being trans* in this war.”