I began photographing Colette in 2015 on her journey to transitioning from male to female. She has been taking estrogen as part of hormone replacement therapy. October 2016
Colette’s boyfriend injects her with estrogen in their shared apartment. They ended their romantic relationship in 2016 but remained friends. December 2015
Colette opens the drawers of various breast implants to inspect different sizes while waiting for the surgeon to take her into the operating room. June 2019
Colette gets dressed after her doctor’s appointment in Beverly Hills. She takes the 4-hour round trip bus ride from her subsidized apartment in downtown Los Angeles for one hour appointments. July 2019
Samskaras are marks that are imprinted in the mind and body. Muscles retain their own memories until the power of consciousness is able to overrride them. One can either be victim to their own samskaras or embrace life's challenges.
“There is appearance consistent with chronic laterally dislocated and hypoplastic patella. The patella is also superiorly displaced relative to normal position. The patellar cartilage is poorly deformed/thin as well as exhibiting irregular contour and heterogeneous signal particularly at the zone of contact between the poorly defined medial portion of the patella and the anterolateral aspect of the lateral femoral condyle."
Since my birth, my father would conduct photo shoots of my yoga practice and therapeutic setups to send to his guru, BKS Iyengar, to ask for guidance and notes about what steps to take to increase my mobility. I did yoga every morning.
Graston Technique The Graston is a powerful metal tool that breaks up scar tissue and fascial restrictions. It’s an incredibly painful process. I tried to use photography as a way to distract myself.
Samskaras are marks that are imprinted in the mind and body. Muscles retain their own memories until the power of consciousness is able to override them. One can either be victim to their own samskaras or embrace life's challenges. Living with this chronic physical mobility issue for my entire life has taken a big toll mentally and physically, but through the process of documentation, I’ve began embracing the things that I used to loathe.
Applying the suction cups was simple, but a novel experience. Using the pump vacuum for the first time made my stomach turn as the skin immediately puffed up, slightly discolored. I looked down and saw an alien landscape of raised skin valleys and bumps, odd cups moving blood into my quadriceps.
Aftermath When I first began getting deep tissue massage, my leg was peppered with bruises of all shapes, sizes, and colors. The landscape of browns, purples, yellows, and oranges was disturbing at first, but then I began to see the stories behind the marks. The body communicates through bruises, showing us which tissues and muscles are restricted and what areas needs more work.
An acupuncturist places needles along my leg. When I was in high school, every Sunday afternoon my family and I went to our acupuncturist's office. My mother held my hand and read me books to distract me, my brother entertained himself in the front of the store re-organizing the Chinese statues and toys, and my father was treated just a few feet away from me, separated by a curtain. Now I go alone, and the pain isn't as bed as I remember.
Samskaras are marks that are imprinted in the mind and body. Muscles retain their own memories until the power of consciousness is able to overrride them. One can either be victim to their own samskaras or embrace life's challenges.