I FEEL LIKE I AM SITTING IN A BLACK EMOTIONAL HOLE
Tbilisi, November 2022
The war which Russia started against Ukraine on the 24th of February 2022 forced a lot of Russian journalists and human right activists to leave the country due to repressions and the risk of being detained.
In Tbilisi, the capital of Georgia there is a special shelter where those people can live in physical safety trying to figure out what to do and where to go next.
The shelter was organized by the group of activists calling themselves Marem who previously were working in Chechnya and Dagestan protecting women's right. They made arrangements with a local businessman who allowed them to occupy one of his houses free of charge. That was a great relief as the rent in Georgia increased by 1100% from the beginning of the war and the most part of the political migrants left with no money at all.
The shelter is located on the outskirts of Tbilisi. It housed 23 people who have found out about opportunity to stay here through the networks of friends and secret telegram chats dedicated to the issues of political migration. All these people were persecuted in Russia for their journalistic or human rights activities. Most of them lost everything and cannot return back. They now live in limbo trying to find themselves in the course of these terrible events that should not have started.
As the residents of the shelter I also left Russia after the start of the war. I was working as an independent journalist there and it was unsafe for me stay in the country.
I spent 3 weeks in the shelter making photographs and talking to the people. During one of the conversations Nastya from Moscow told me - "I feel like I am sitting in a black emotional hole". This phrase had a big effect on me. I realized that my feelings were comlepetely identical. After the start of the war I felt constant sadness and guilt inside.
The present story not only displays what is going on in the shleter but also and most importantly visualizes collective mental state of the Russian political migrants who were forced to leave their homeland.